EXPERIMENTATION

What do you do when you miss someone so much but you know that
person doesn't?

TITLE :

How to win someone back.

ASSIGNMENT :

To win someone back despite of :

a. him, already having a girl

b. his friendster's status is "In a Relationship"

c. his friendster photos are full of pix of him and his current girl in their beachcapades all over the country

OBJECTIVE :

To win someone back without appearing cheap...and well, a sour loser

MATERIALS NEEDED :

a. Vicky Belo contract (optional)

b. Friendster Account (at least 1)

c. Wardrobe (sexy sets)

d. Exercise (killer combination)

e. Make-up setsf. Common Friends

PROCEDURE :

1. Always login to friendster to monitor any development in his status : Single n kaya siya?

2. Assess and evaluate yourself. Say "I'm the same person he used to love, ain't I? And I can win him back no matter!" If the answer is yes, go to step3, If no, STOP. Loser ka talga!!!!

3. Do a little exercise (remember you gain 23 lnbs in Convergys?) If necessity asks,
do a lot everyday...study for certain combinations, or for better results, enrol in a gym or aerobics lesson. If you're still not satisfied or convinced you can face him, see Dr. Belo.

4. Try on some of your chosen wardrobes and put on some make-up. You could also do color combinations (just make sure that colors agree, otherwise, you'd look like a beaten Kabuki doll). After you've ensured you "ALMOST LOOK PERFECT", go to step 5.

5. Visit you common friends. When you visit them, make sure you'd have time to see him and make opportunities being visible to him (Read : Visible!!!).

QUESTION OF THE LIFETIME :

Should or shouldn't I try winning him back?

SYNOPSIS :

You'd been officemates for a year but you managed to see him as an alien. Why not?
Not only his fair complexion (too fair for a man) bothered you, he seemed to be so "yabang" and Über "confident" because of his good looks (w/c you admitted just NOW insecured/scared you so much) which made you conclude he's a total "HEARTBREAKER". But deep inside you knew and admitted he's so damn gorgeous and only, all throughout, you managed to drive away any hint or notion that you were indeed, "ATTRACTED" and weren't immune to his charms. You
always put on your defense mechanism by saying "Given he's cute, you know naman I've no eyes for gwapo, di bah? Isa pa, he's nothing compared to Mr. Blank (your very first love and the man you still claimed you're hopelessly and madly inlove with, or so, you thought)" and even
armored yourself with this "mataray" looks and reputation that you loved exhibiting and showcasing everytime, as a result HE ended up as either being the "Witness" or the "Victim". But despite of your frequent public display of "katarayan" at "kasungitan", you knew you were special to him, you actually felt it. Take the following examples (if people raise their brows and start musing "Ilusyonada") :

1) You caught his frequent stares that made you wonder maybe :

a."Lagpas ba ung lipstick ko?" Later on you realize you actually didn't put on some makeup.

b. "Magulo ba ung hair ko? Care ko, eh, mahangin sa labas!" But you unconciously started combing your hair.

c. "May dumi b sa mukha ko or madumi b ung face ko?" This time you intentionally check your face --- eyes, nose, etc....and started opening your bag and took you pressed powder out and made a final facial check (hehehe), "Okay naman, a!"

So the verdict : Maybe he found your face worth staring at and found you pleasing at all.

2) He tried to, at least if not with you, befriend your friends and invited them to play billiards with him.

3) Finally, receded and admitted the truth that "Hindi k talaga kaya ng powers niya!" and just shrugged his shoulders as you started showing your cat claws and started nagging again, which strangley, he found so amusing!

But you still hated him for no apparent reason at all. You just didn't like him or was it your feeling for him that you despised? You would rather admit to have crush on other guys than admit that you had strong feelings for him but silently worshipped and nortured your feelings for him. That throughout the duration of your stay in that office, you had been a COLOSSAL DENIAL QUEEN. You even remembered that when he was hospitalized, you visited him or intended to visit him, only you were not able to because you were "caught peeking to his private room by his closest friends with their sheepish grins" and you didn't know what to do or say or how to escape that "shameful event" and said "Hi, nasa 3rd floor kami ni Chele, may dinalaw lang kami. Sige, bye..." and bolted your way out of the scene (Now you realized that what you said didn't make any sense at all!)You silently prayed as you walked away "God, kunin mo na ko ngayon, nakakahiya! Ano n lang iispin nun tungkol sa kin --- Na kaya ako mataray sa kaniya eh, dahil patay n patay pala ako..! NAKAKAHIYA!!!!" So to cover up that shameful event you continued crushing on other guys even if your friends didn't believe you anymore...

And the DAY of your life came. He ardently admitted his undying affection for you that went on something like this : "No words can describe how much I feel for you. The only words I could utter is I love you!" But despite the fact that you've learned that he loved you, you still didn't believe that and almost cried out loud "Sabi ko n nga ba!" when you've heard that he's courting other girl months after he admitted he loved you. See? Who knows those words were really for that girl and not yours? Unfortunately, you never had the time to verify and confront "your status" - because you had to leave...

And now after almost 16 months, you were informed by your friend (the same friend you're with in the hospital) that He was seen with his current girl in Galera, November of last year. They were very cozy and sweet! Sweet? So how was that! How coud they be? Oh, well, you're too far from being sweet, you'd rather be sour because you love eating green mango and pineapple, so you'd rather be sour, yes, you are a SOUR LOSER!!! Did he actually love you? Did he? Loved you? A year ago? Or was everything a big joke? Like you were a big joke to him? Maybe he was just young then, maybe...Maybe he's just fooling around...Maybe he wasn't...What if he was?

Or maybe it was your fault....for driving him away...for being coward...for not following what your heart sought to do. Your only CONSOLATION : You dumped him first (sort of, hehehe) before he could dump you! You didn't even give him the chance to get close to you. So why are you sulking and wanting him back? SANITY CHECK : Nababaliw ka na ba? HOW COULD YOU WIN BACK SOMEONE WHO WASN'T THERE AT ALL? Someone who wasn't yours? SOMEONE WHO WAS NEVER YOURS AND WOULD NEVER BE?

CONCLUSION :

No, you don't want him back. I guess, you just need to see him for the last time --- to finally set yourself free and let go of
someone who was never there at all. You need to move on. You should. And you would! So what if you miss him? So what if you miss him so much it damn hurt? If you're able to survive not seeing him for 16 mos, for sure you would for the next 16 mos or more...You could live without him, yes and be a COLOSSAL DENIAL QUEEN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!

Kumanta n lang nga tayo :

"Even if you mean the whole damn world to me

I can forget you, wait and see

I can be strong even without you

I can't waste my life forever hoping you'll come back to me

But deep inside you know, I'll be waiting here for you.."

***FOOTNOTE : This is a true story because this is MY STORY!!!

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JUST A THOUGHT : "Sabi nila malalaman mo
daw kung talagang mahal mo ang isang tao
kapag nawala siya at alam mong may kulang
na sa'yo at hindi ka na magiging kompleto
kung hindi siya babalik."