Mushy..

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever." - Ally McBeal


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If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Its because you're not there to catch me if I fall

If you feel lost,
I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him
Its you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
Its you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
Its you I want to fall in love with.

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When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
Its you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
Its you I want to fall in love with.


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sounds, reads or looks familiar? Got it from my e-mail....

Random Thoughts on Love...on Life

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I received this one from my friends...yup...it had been circulating the net since we've celebreated the Friendship week -- kudos to those who invented that FRIENDSHIP WEEK...! ;) --, from yahoo groups to chain emails and all...but can't help but be touched with the thought of actually hearing this (in real life) from your bf or friend...
Ang saya, di bah?
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A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,....and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face
The boy grabbed her arm and said....

You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die.

Happy...

What makes me happy :

-johnny depp
-river phoenix
-boys (ex-crushes JM, VO and EN, and my new crush in Convergys - dunno
his name, yet)
-my cd collections
-blogs
-mongo bread and doughnuts
-composer of PLumb's Real
-Fleetwood MAC's Landslide
-my k700i phone,MP3's saved in it
-email messages
-Gin Blossoms
-text messages
-friends (old and new)
-my brother's college education (I finance that...I am a SUGAR ATE)
-15th and 30th of the month (paydays, then a day after, I'm the poorest
of all)
-my bed (w/c I bought)
-my work (at least I have a decent and good-paying job...i didn't say
"high-paying")
-our soon to be finished house "HOME SWEET HOME" (this is one
ACHIEVEMENT I take the greatest pride - I was the one who finance that from the lot acquisition up to it's construction and registration)
-family (SUGAR DAUGHTER naman ang drama ko sa kanila...)
-A Walk to Remember (the movie, the novel, the soundtrack - I have them
all!)
-my nephew Julius and my niece Jeaneth (with whom I am a SUGAR TITA)
-my tv (w/c I bought as well)
-my teammates (Anonimhy)
-my credit cards (I love them for as long as I haven't seen the bill)
-my betty boop notebooks
-internet
-the air I breathe
-music
-stars,moon, sun
-Irene, Khat, Chele, Aimz, Doh, Ruthie, Malen, Jahnays, Shiela, Pring, Carolyn, Rhea, Zaldy ,Noemi, and many more....
-singlehood (meaning I don't have to put up with someone, no nagging
bf)
-problems and how you drag yourself to resolve them (they made me who I
am, they made me a better person...)
-the people who became and are part of my life and the excitement of
knowing and meeting more...and definitely learn something from them
-GOD and His being in control of everything
-my life (my ever changing, challenging, colorful and happy but
complicated life) and the fact that;
-I AM STILL ALIVE!!!

**Whatever makes you happy,just b happy...Hehehe...Let no one take that
away from you... I'd start writing 5 things that make me happy each day - be those persons, things, happenings, places or events....

Honestly I dunno if I am happy now or if I am, why, I just feel good
(w/c isn't normal bec this happened a long time ago..Dunnno when was the
last time I had this feeling...)I just wake up happy and think that
it's gonna be a great day...INDEED! I think one of the reasons is bec
tomorrow's gonna be my off and the next day as well...



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SONG OF THE DAY

***one of mah most fave songs...dis one's fr EXPOSE -
AS LONG AS I CAN DREAM

When this world that I see
Is too hard to take and too much for me
And everything's in blue
When the rain's pourin' down
I can't find the sun
Don't mean the sun can't found
It always comes through

There's not a soul that's lost
That can't find its way
There's not a night that's long
That can't find the day

As long as I can dream
There's a better world
Oh, there's a better world
I see it shinin'
And in my dreams I see
There's a better world
Oh, there's a better world
As long as I can dream

In my heart there's a place
Where there's always hope
And always a way
To make it through the night
And in my soul, I believe
If I just have faith
Then I will be free
I'll be alright

There's not a soul that's lost [not a soul]
That can't find its way
There's not a night that's long
That can't find the day

As long as I can dream
There's a better world
Oh, there's a better world
I see it shinin'
And in my dreams I see
There's a better world
Oh, there's a better world
As long as I can dream

Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Oh

There's not a soul that's lost
That can't find its way
There's not a night that's long

As long as I can dream
There's a better world
I see it shinin' on me
In my dreams I see. yeah
There's a better world
As long as I can dream
I can see it
There's a better world
Yes, it's shinin' on me
In my dreams I see
There's a better world
Mmmmm
Just as long as I can dream

The Facade

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find

That oh, a girl is scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I've come to you
Tell me will you stay or will you run away?

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night
I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there
No one cares for me, ohh

What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much I wanna run to you....



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When I face the mirror, I see tears streamin' down my face everytime I sing this song with Whitney Houston...I wonder why.....?

Malen on Positivity

I wish I could be like Malen...have her mind, her sense of understanding and her heart... Wish I could share same thoughts as she had in her blog....

"LINK2SUPPORT Inc.

Getting wealthy working in a company is a pretty, well, unimaginative reason to love it, because nobody gets rich being a slave to someone else. This is true for most of us. I, for example, having worked non stop in this company for almost 3 years, have gained (approximately) P500,000 in my account--- minus taxes, credit card, loans, allowances, tuitions, food, gimiks and other miscellaneous --- which makes me P100 worth at this moment.

So, why am i keeping this job?

For me, my greatest emotional connection with the company i work with stems from a lifelong love of FUN and LEARNING (verum est?) at the same time. This job wont get me rich, for sure, but I am still keeping it. What I have learned and experienced from this job will not amount to anything. I've met the best and the worst souls in this world. Life is too short. It's not worth it. In this world, we don't have to love everything that we do, but we need to find happiness and meaning in most of them, esp. in our professional work. Life is not just about how much you're earning. You can have piles of money, but if you're not living the life you want to live, you won't be able to buy enough things to make up for it.my heart cries out for this one...

"Hand In My Pocket"
I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five


I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette -- except this one

And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken****
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab


whispered by malen @ 4:08 AM on "
her Mrach 29, 2005 entry....

I am....

BLUE.....

I am compassionate. I am always encouraging and supporting. I am a peacemaker, sensitive to the needs of others. I am a natural romantic.

I like to do things that require caring, counseling, nurturing, and harmonizing. I have a strong desire to contribute and to help others lead more significant lives. I am poetic and often enjoy the arts.

I value integrity and unity in relationships. I am enthusiastic, idealistic, communicative, and sympathetic. I express my feelings easily.

Your heart-felt communication style creates peace and harmony in the workplace. You know how to bring out the best in others. As a Blue personality you are gifted with tremendous people skills. You're a heart felt communicator who has a strong need to make a difference in the lives of other people. This strength is immediately noticeable in the way you make connections and bring out the best in those you encounter. People usually feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence.

You love to build self-esteem and make others feel good about who they are. You can easily motivate and inspire people to make changes in their lives and reach their potential. This natural talent makes you excel a counselor, teacher, social worker and journalist

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from http://www.truecolorscareer.com/

I'm fed up!!!!!

CVG had gradually turned into hell this past few months....get that? I hate this company, their sanity-freaking policies (not to mention unattainable) and it won't take 3 mos and I'm outta this hellish company!!! (Just give me time, ok...mhirap ata humanap ng work ngayon at mahirap ang buhay, noh!) Honestly. Ive never expcted myself to last long in this industry, if not for the good compensation and friends...yeah friends...




And now that I am in a new team, i don't think i'll be able to survive but I have...anyways, the team is actually going to Galera on the 18-2oth of this month...Gudlak!!! I think I ought to give them a chance...maybe I could find new set of friends there...


It's this time of life when you miss good old days...

You start missing the times spent with friends...

You start missing the things you used to do...

I wish I could stay as a child forever, skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts and aching souls...you only worry about whom you'd be playing with...now how you'd play in life...you cry and the people around you gave what you'd asked... now you'd cry because you weren't given the things you thought you ought to have...and wish you could give more to people you'd love...

Haaayyyyyyyy..why can't I stay young forever?



Sigh...sigh...sigh...



Anonimhy pipz...ur such darlings to me...I really can't help but compare you to my present team but strangely, I am enjoying my new team...they're bunch of good people...they really welcome me and make me comfortable...


Miss you aimz, ruth, malen and pring and the rest of the L2S_MOC, hope I cud join u in the next climb...


Chele, sorry wasn't able to meet you when we were supposed to meet...that was my fault...and I miss you!!! I read ur comment about my EXPERIMENTATION - that was great! Napapangiti den ako...hehehehe...That was one of my life's most embarassing moment, but twas exciting!!!

i know i've been such an ass to u jahnays, but sorry...hope u understand that i have my own life to attend to...I wish there would be times I could say "NO" to your invitations because I need to...I need to be selfish at times...need to focus on myself at times...need to think of myself and not just jump off my bed when you text me and hop in to Megamall if you want me to even if I have important things to do or deal...I'm just being fair, ain't I? But I want you to know that I miss you....


I miss shiela, rhea, carol and zaldy...and all my college friends...hope we could have a reunion!

I miss everything...I miss life, happiness, childhood...I miss my college days...

I need peace of mind...

I need a break...(in a far far far land of Puerto galera...I'd be joining my team there on the 18th-20th...)

Life's really pissing me off BIGTIME!

basta, nakakainis ang life...it has been so hard lately!!!

So hard!!!

I wish there's a thing called "TIME OUT" in life, I really wish there was... and as Mayonnaise said on their song "Jopay" aalis tayo sa tunay na mundo....



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Kantahan ko na lang nga ung sarili ko:



lift yer head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong
along the way
you'll get by with a smile
u can't win at everything but u can try

and baby u don't have to worry
coz there ain't no need to hurry
no one ever said that there's no easy way
and when they're closing all their doors
and they don't want u anymore
this sounds funny but i'll say it anyway

girl i'll staythrough the bad times
even if i have to fetch u everyday
i'll get by if u smile
u can never be too happy in this life

coz in a world where everybody hates
a happy ending story
it's a wonder love can make the world go round
but don't let it bring u down
and turn ur face into a frown
u'll get along with a little prayer and a song

lift yer head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
we'll get by with a smile
now it's time to kiss away
those tears goodbye